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or if you really have a lump. Its all good entertainment....true or false.
To each their own, but I don't find the lump entertaining. Personally I hope it is benign and that Monet has it excised or at least aspirated.
I might as well keep lying so the Confederates can keep up with the hate and bitterness. You have to keep feeding the beast because it is hungry.
This is how it went down for the last 11 years or so. In 2007/08 I noticed something inside the rectum when showering. It felt like a soft bump but I hardly go to doctors and I just am not educated enough about the whole thing. In the last few years I did more internet research on the subject and have more knowledge but at the time I didn't feel sick so I thought nothing of it. I did have a small problem when I was doing some heavy construction in the back yard moving large rocks and using a jack hammer and such. I noticed in my stool I had some blood with mucus but when I asked family about it they told me that if the blood is bright in color it is most likely nothing to worry about and that the strain probably caused it. If I wanted the colonoscopy it would cost about 3k.
A few years later I noticed many times blood in my stool whenever I drank heavy so I quit. I noticed if I ate spicy food or drank large amounts of alcohol I would have a burning sensation when defecating. I figure that is from some small fissure in that area. I just don't feel sick so I just toughed it out. Yes I did read that blood in the stool is no good but some people like myself just refuse to go to the doctors unless we are taken because we can't move. After quitting the drinking and spicy food I noticed the next two times I went to Six Flags and rode all the roller coasters I had the same problem with blood in the stool so I quit that. Years passed and I didn't really notice any problems. I changed up my diet and started to juice more and fast more. Things seemed to clear up and I didn't feel sick so I never checked it out.
About 5 years or so I would have problems on the sides of my neck and throat when I would stay up for days playing machines and basically wear myself down burning the candle at both ends so to speak. A friend said that it was my thyroid and that he has the same problem when he pulls days of drinking and gambling without sleep. I still didn't think it was serious and it only popped up when I would stay up for days at a time with no rest so I started to get proper rest daily and things cleared up again. I guess it was about 3 years ago I ended up getting really sick with a bad case of the flu and I had a sore throat for about 2 months that took forever to clear up and after that my immune system was never straight. After that episode I started hammering VP machines again and the Plaza was going strong and after that I was chasing the Royal at Skyline putting in 17-20 hour days in all that smoke filled rooms. I would get some pain or stress in the neck but I would just tough it out and it was manageable. Of course I was hammering out the Young at Heart Promo pretty strong as well and found a couple Over Pays with Boyd that I hit pretty hard so I was putting in long hours without proper rest for a long time.
Now I guess it was 3 years or more I noticed my stool was coming out flat sort of like lasagna noodles with no blood but I figured that was bad. My aunt said it is most likely a big polyp and I should see a doctor to make sure. I don't feel bad so I don't go to the doctor. My stool has been the same since that time and many times you can see it is flat and many times I just do not have what is considered healthy stool. I just figure it is colon cancer and it will kill me soon enough. I refuse to go under the knife and I really refuse to go into the microwave. So no reason to go to the doctors. In my mind I can't live forever and I don't see the point of living for another 20 years to just die anyways. My father did that. He went to Cleveland Clinic and they found brain Cancer and they cut into him and radiated him and it worked and didn't come back. However he lived the next ten years in extreme pain and his eye drooped down. Oddly enough he ended up falling down the stairs and that was that... game over. Ten years of pain just to die anyways. In my mind I can't stop death and I just have to go sometime... I am not trying to hang on at all costs for another 30 years of selfish living... it makes no sense to me.
All the reading on the subject I have done basically says you have the same time frame if you get treatment or not. 80% of people getting cut or radiated have the growth come back even stronger and many agree that radiation kills you faster.
I suppose it was about 1 and a half years or so ago I noticed a small bump at the base of my breast plate or bone and noticed that it was growing. My wife has something similar on her tricep but it has no pain and it stopped growing. She has had that for 10 years or so. Anyways mine has slight pain or discomfort for the first year and after that it grew but seems like it stopped for the most part that I can tell. The lump is bigger than it was a year ago but I think it is spreading because the pain is in the ribs close to where the lump is. The pain isn't constant but it is more noticeable compared to what it was.
The pain in the right side of my neck is constant now and never seems to go away for long. It moves from the right side to the center to the left at times. The pain is usually on my right side and at times it is in my right ear and eyeball and in my arm and hand at times with tingling in the hand at times. I also get pain in the center of my back that is chronic.
I just figure that it started in my Colon and spread all over... once it gets to the organs it will be lights out and if the pain gets unbearable it will be the gun to the head. I told Mr V it would be a 45 but I might change that to using my pistol gripped shotgun and a pumpkin ball slug which should do the job better. Either way the end is near. Even if I did live another 40 years or so it doesn't matter I am going to have to take the ride eventually. When I was born I was 7 months old so I was premature. It is obvious my whole life has been a life of not being able to wait. I can't wait in lines and I can't stand driving behind slow drivers. I couldn't wait to be born and it seems I can't wait as long to die either. Just the way it is for some people that is all. I don't have children and I am down to a wife and one other family member. It is over... case closed.