This morning I received the news that I will be undergoing emergency heart valve replacement surgery Monday to replace a mechanical valve that was put in 6 years ago which is failing. No need for anyone to feel bad for me as it’s an anonymous message board and none of you really know me. Even the handful of guys here that I consider my “internet friends” haven’t met me...at least not officially (that might give one or two something to think about). For those that don’t care a whole lot for me, don’t get too excited. I anticipate being back online in a week to 10 days with too much time on my hands while I am recovering.
I believe in God and have a strong relationship with him. We talk everyday. I feel confident that he doesn’t want me up there bothering him just yet. But I do have a couple things I need to say publicly...first.
First my history with this condition. In 2011, in my late 20’s I became sick with endocarditis, which is an infection that quickly eats the lining of heart values. I had heart valve replacement surgery, replacing 2 valves, and at that time I was told I had 25-30 years before they might need to be replaced again. Actually at that time I opted for the mechanical replacement, rather than the tissue valves, specifically because they were supposed to last longer, so I am feeling a little bit short-changed.Life happens.
Receiving this news this morning on such short notice has send my immediate family into chaos. My mother who lives less than a mile away, is immediately moving into the guest room as she feels she needs to be here to care for me. My brother, hates having my mother in the same house as he always fear she wants to run his life. Silly boy has nothing to worry about, she’s not moving in to run his life...she is moving in to run mine over the next couple months. My partner is pissed that my mother thinks she needs to care for me during my recovery. He says “who does she think cared for you 6 years ago, when she was sitting on her ass in Florida?”
As these selfish morons, who are my immediate family, and I love dearly, fight among themselves, no one has even asked what I want. I really just want a little peace and tranquility for the next 36 hours.
I have already gone off track more than intended so, back to you all, the members of this forum, that I now call home. Yesterday, my main concerns were the expensive repair to my swimming pool and giving Alan a hard time about seeing 18 yo’s in a row. Neither seems very important to me today. I wish I could delete the “poll” thread I started just to make Alan look bad and let him know that no one believes him...but I can’t. The site doesn’t allow me to, so Dan Druff if you are reading, please delete that thread...it serves no purpose.
I mean really what do I care if Alan thinks he saw 18 yo’s in a row (he didn’t!). Whether he is lying or misremembering….what do I care. Whatever he saw or thinks he saw made quite an impression on him.
As a matter of fact, ALL the bickering that I have been involved in for the last year and a half, on several forums, today, I ask myself why? What does any of it matter? Including what people think of me. That is NOT why I began participating on gambling related forums. I sincerely apologize to anyone who was offended by anything I said, as I at times got carried away in defending myself. And I am going to single out and specify Alan, because I have said some things, nasty at times, that although he has a way and seems to enjoy provoking, he still didn’t deserve.
I also want to address a couple people from prior sites that while they don’t participate here that I know of, I have a feeling just might read.
First Mike Shackleford: I am really sorry you got caught up in a feud that didn’t involve you. I think you made a bad choice in getting involved and once you did, you treated me unfairly. But there is plenty of blame to go around.....we can all take a piece of that blame. I don’t think you set out to treat me unfairly, but you did and it hurt me, because I respected you and really tried to make positive contributions to your forum for 4 years. You were put in the middle. And whether you think you have done anything that needs my forgiveness or not….I forgive you. I also deeply regret my handling of things afterwards on Gamblingforums, and particularly all the name calling. I often rail against the juvenile name calling on these forums and no one did it more than I. I sincerely apologize.
Norm Wattenberger: I will never understand your actions throughout this ordeal (feud). But I forgive you.
Norm, remember when I said I will celebrate the day you die? Trust me I am not going to give you the chance to do that first. I intend to live a long time. I hope you do too.Maybe given enough time we can find a way to figure this out and move forward.
LarryS (from gambling forums): Larry, nothing wrong with being a male nurse. Very noble profession. I apologize for any jokes or putdowns involving your occupation. And I know you are now retired (I hope happily so), but just in case you are doing some sort of volunteer work here in Vegas and happen to be in the hospital I am in, DO NOT WASH MY BALLS! Stay the hell away from my balls!
It’s a fantastically beautiful day here in Vegas, bright blue sunny skies, 78 degrees and just a hint of a breeze and I have a few friends coming over for an impromptu get-together that my brother has in very bad taste named “the last supper”....god love him. I do!So until next week or so…. god bless you all.
Edit: PS. Mickeycrimm: How could I forget you. You always had my back. Thanks for being my friend, now and going forward.
In reading/editing this post, I can already anticipate and feel the "drama" / "drama queen" comments. Hey...it's what my people do! (I'm talking about the Irish)....but we can discuss that in a week or so.
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