Tasha, I suspect you are going through some form of "addiction" viz. trolling, just as many gamblers get addicted to gambling.
Given your proclivity for positng on gambling forums I think it is safe to assume that your trolling problem fits hand and glove with your gambling problem.
Note I use the word 'troll" only because you self-identify in that way; personally I'd call you more of a lonely person seeking interaction with others.
see: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/b...hs-and-sadists