All your babbling is only to try and cover up yet another pathetic weakness of yours: the insane inability to not simply let go of what others say about you, and just move on.
Any legitimate and true AP would never be bothered by what tater? says about you, and any respectable/confident/reputable human being wouldn't keep nervously checking other forums for kew put-downs just to have the neurotic last word. And this is why there is no way that you are any kind of actual "winning AP". You just don't possess the discipline nor the intellect to have anything to do with it. Your massive obsession, however, with worrying about others in every way does in fact qualify you as an internet gambling forum psychotic.
Congrats!