I am alive and well. I gave blackjack up for good. I used card counting to management my emotions from severe PTSD. When It became extremely hard to play I found myself getting servre PTSD Flash back. I don't appreciate being called a degenerate because if you walked in my shoes with the past that I had, most would be homeless on herion, or comitted suicide. Although my cashflow is negative, I have gotten my net worth up to about 50 percent of my earnings in blackjack. I am doing fine and mostly sober. I slip up from time to time but working on it and I am in good health. I got to the doctor every 3 months.