I'm just giving you advice for what should clearly make you a healthier person mentally. It is funny. The nicer and more reasonable I am the crazier and more unhinged you become.
You can post all you want but don't expect people to not give you shit for your endless nonsense that YES you try your best to convince people of this nonsense.
Your whole put a gun to your mouth blah blah just goes to show how you can't be taken seriously. It also suggests a very dark side with your need to go to guns and the likes. MaxPen might have been closer than most people are willing to believe. I wasn't going to suggest it but all this gun nonsense. You just keep showing how much it really does matter to you and how unstable you are.
Like I said bro. Log off and go see some sunlight. Get a pet? Find something to do as clearly this forum is not good for you. Seriously.