And that particular day that you are obsessing on ($8800 loss) happens to be my best day of the year.  I accumulated more EV that day so far this year and in the end that will translate into actual win. 
 
I used to have a 'signature line' on another site that read:  
"I don't track my play by wins or losses.  I track my play by EV accumulated.  That makes every day a winning day and in the end (long-term) actual wins and EV will come together." 
That sir, is the basic philosophy of AP. 
