Your whinings on this board show your "dream" is a nightmare.
As for your success as a card counter, measure it against other well-educated white guys who went the traditional route: most are married, have a family, a steady job, a home...you know, part of the "American Dream."
Have you bought a home yet?
Have you found a woman who would even consider having a long term relationship with you?
Gotta think the way you bitch and moan about things would not play well with a well-grounded woman, as they'd want a man with some stability and a level head: you seem to lack both.
But hey, if that's what you really like, have at it: lotta lone wolves roaming the world these days; but remember: "Judge not, lest ye be judged."
Meanwhile I'll just munch popcorn and laugh at your ridiculous screeds.